When I think of spring, I think of new beginnings, rebirth,
changing and falling in love. I think
there is a cliché about in spring a young man’s thoughts turn to love. I love
the way the seasons are changing and flowers are blooming, the trees are
budding, and the earth is turning green again. Just like the earth, people also
have times in their lives when they change and evolve, are reborn or fall in
love.
When I was in my thirties, after fifteen years of marriage,
I walked out the door and decided this was not what I wanted in life. I had
been extremely unhappy for probably fourteen of those fifteen years. There were
times it got better, but I could never say I was happy. Not only did it reflect
in my marriage, but it reflected in my personality. I hated my marriage, I hated my job, I hated
my life. When you’re an unhappy person, it radiates from you. You become toxic.
I was a walking, toxic ball of unhappiness.
