When I think of spring, I think of new beginnings, rebirth, changing and falling in love. I think there is a cliché about in spring a young man’s thoughts turn to love. I love the way the seasons are changing and flowers are blooming, the trees are budding, and the earth is turning green again. Just like the earth, people also have times in their lives when they change and evolve, are reborn or fall in love.
When I was in my thirties, after fifteen years of marriage, I walked out the door and decided this was not what I wanted in life. I had been extremely unhappy for probably fourteen of those fifteen years. There were times it got better, but I could never say I was happy. Not only did it reflect in my marriage, but it reflected in my personality. I hated my marriage, I hated my job, I hated my life. When you’re an unhappy person, it radiates from you. You become toxic. I was a walking, toxic ball of unhappiness.
After I walked out, I made the decision to become a different person. I went to therapy, I learned more about myself and what I liked. I decided never to settle for second best ever again. I can’t tell you that this change magically happened over night. There were plenty of bumps along the road, wrong paths taken and well-hard learned lessons. But I made the decision to be a happier person.
This was the spring of my life – the new beginning.
Today, I love my life. It’s not perfect, but I don’t wake up in the morning and think who’s going to crap on my parade today. I pay more attention to the good things and deal with the issues that I don’t like right away. Fortunately, today I have a wonderful man in my life that makes me smile all the time and even when things get rocky between us, I know with certainty that we’ll work things out. My job is a job, but I’m happy there. My writing is my passion, and I create a new beginning each time I sit down to write a book. My characters must go through the dark winter, overcome obstacles and find their spring or rebirth.
So what about you? Was there a time in your life when you experienced a new beginning? A springtime where you were reborn and learned a valuable lesson of rebirth?
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